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We have been happily married for 7 1/2 years. We have had our share of smiles but what would really make us happy to finally begin our family.


Robert & I married August 10th 1997 and have been trying to start a family since. We went through all of the natural methods of conception for 13 months and when unable to conceive, the doctors recommended the use of Clomid. After six Clomid cycles I went in for some testing and they discovered that I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and a unicornate uterus. So we then tried IUI (Intra Uterine Insemination). IUI is a technique that basically loads the female body up on hormones until she releases a couple of eggs. Then the man's sperm is cleaned up and "supercharged" and injected into the uterus. Then everyone sits and waits for a couple weeks to see if a baby is made. Although we gave it a valiant effort but after 4 times it just didn't work. Unfortunately, my body wouldn't respond to the clomid so we discontinued that method. We then began the IVF (Invetro Fertilization) process. Now that process is pretty intense. Lots of shots and pills would be a serious understatement. Upon the egg retrieval they got 44 eggs from me. (This would be a good time for me to tell you that the normal amount is 10-20.) Since I was hyper stimulated I couldn't get implanted with embryos yet. So I had to wait about 45 days. Then the process began again. Shots and pills followed up with more shots and pills. I had three different times of having live embryo’s implanted into my uterus. Sadly, none of the embryos implanted into the uterine walls as we had wished for. At first I must admit that my frustration in the lack of beginning the family we longed for lay solely within my own reality. Then I became the member of a support group for infertile couples and it felt good to know that I wasn't alone. I, in essence, wasn't the only "broken" person out there. Through this group I was given strength to stand up and say "I am meant to be a mother to a special child. Although that child may not be from my womb that child will be mine" Our love and desire to be parents has no boundaries and sees no race or religion. We would just be parents to a very special child. Then in November of 2004 we were put into touch with a pregnant teenager. She lived in Ohio and this girl is the prettiest thing we ever did lay our eyes on. We flew out in January to meet her and see if she still wanted us to adopt the son that she was carrying. As we were headed back to the airport we were told to get the nursery ready because we were going to need it. Our hearts and spirits soared so high nothing in the world could of shattered them. Then on February 5, 2005 we got the phone call that the baby was born. We got dressed and ran to the airport. Upon our arrival in Ohio we went to the hospital and got to hold, hug, kiss and fall in love with our son. I spent a few minutes talking with the birth mother telling her how he would always know that she did the most UNselfish act in the world by giving him up for adoption. The next day at court devastation struck. She changed her mind....our son was no longer our son. For a brief 24 hours I felt the joy of being called mommy. And in as quick as it took for the words "I want to keep him" could flow from her mouth our hearts were torn out. The pain and grief are something we feel on a daily basis. If ever we knew that being parents was in our future it was ensured that fateful day in court. That is why we are reaching out to the public and asking for help.

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